The last few years of my life have been an amazing, at times unbelievable, often terrifying, and incredibly thrilling journey; emerging out of fear, judgment, suffering, and ego-conditioning, and moving towards self-love, conscious awareness, authenticity, forgiveness, acceptance, and surrender.
My personal intention for this site is that it serve as a catalog of the thoughts, experiences, and resources I’ve been collecting as I go. I hope they are helpful to those who might feel (as I often have) like they are wandering around in the darkness.
Here’s the thing – I’m not a good writer. When I’m writing, I imagine that I’m speaking to you, and my words (like my speech) meander all over the place. My grammar and structure leave much to be desired, I know. My only real excuse (aside from a terribly insufficient primary education) is that English wasn’t my first language. I’m not sure how far that gets me… More honestly, I never took the time to work on my writing, and I still don’t feel like it.
But there is something within that keeps asking me to write and share the things I’m learning and experiencing. I’ve often struggled with the question of whether it’s appropriate to write about deeply sacred and personal things (I sometimes fear that it’s just vanity), but the answer from within has always been in the affirmative. Some of the posts come to me, in ready- made paragraphs in my mind, and it feels as though I’m just transcribing them. I take that as a sign that the content is asking to be shared.
Here’s an ever-growing short background story:
A few years ago, living a rather normal life, I suddenly experienced a very intense spiritual awakening. The details are a very cliche story for another time. (Basically, sitting in a park, under a tree, I listened to some podcasts, and out of nowhere… Awakening! What followed was an entire week of divine love and bliss, and incredible insights into universal wisdom and truth.).
After coming back down to earth, it felt as if something opened for me that could no longer be closed. Everything was different; and I could no longer go back to the life I was living. Feeling compelled to follow this calling to something I didn’t fully understand or appreciate at the time, off I went on my journey of discovery.
Since then, I have dedicated myself almost exclusively to spiritual study and practice. I immersed myself entirely into a variety of spiritual and esoteric traditions and philosophies (toltec, buddhist, tao, zen, shamanism, stoicism, hermeticism, advaita, and non-dual shaiva tantra. Most recently, I’ve been devouring the writings of the Christian mystics.).
More importantly, I spent an incredible year as a Toltec apprentice with Nagual Gaya Jenkins (in the lineage of don Miguel Ruiz). I’ve also studied just about all the major new-age teachings, and spent a year learning sacred sexuality across most of the traditions.
After nearly two years of practice and deep (deep!) inner clearing work, I went through a powerful ego-death experience, a spontaneous initiation, and shortly thereafter, I started to experience the symptoms of a full-blown kundalini awakening. Since then, I have been learning all about this divine process, and navigating incredible states of altered consciousness, mystical events, as well as very intense and challenging periods of healing. I’ve also encounter two twin souls, or twin flames, and learned a great deal about the spiritual principles governing those dynamics.
In the last few months, I’ve been undergoing a profound purification process (both very painful and scary), and learning how to integrate my authentic self with my higher self. It’s complicated, but we’re working it out. 🙂
Currently, I work with clients one-on-one, as a coach, guide, and spiritual teacher (I’m not sure what to call myself exactly). Combining all of the teachings, traditions, and wisdom I’ve received, I help people access self-love, authenticity, personal freedom, inner peace and contentment, as well as spiritual healing. In addition, I’ve been intuitively given a unique set of tools and guidance on how to work with kundalini energy itself; and how to support and guide those who are suffering from intense and painful kundalini syndrome. (The links for that information is above in the menu bar).
If you wish to contact me directly, my email address is firstname.lastname@example.org
All my love and thanks for visiting,